my Christian Grey

ok.... i have a habit of staying in the what so-called 'novelland' every after i read finish a novel. i always have an after effect reading novels. i always tend to live in the world of imaginations once i have read finish novels. but this time, its just so real and i am currently under a high emotional state because of 50shades. yeah, call me crazy. but i know me, i know im not crazy, and also, im not currently imagining something sexual with an imaginable man, it is not THOSE stuff im drawn into 50shades. as i mention earlier, its the or so real love story. i just want to be Anastasia and find my Christian Grey, and no, he is not THAT GUY who always want to do SMstuff! he have suffered a bad childhood and under a stupid influence of an older woman when he is in his teens. got that?? some people should just shut up and start reading the book. he is like a dream man to me, he is too perfect and sad. and im still young, i just turned 17 last friday. i dont think i will be finding my Christian Grey anytime soon. but i anticipate the time to arrive. i will live my life to the fullest, enjoy everything, learn my mistakes, learn everything i want, be everything i want to be, and be ME. and like Anastasia mention earlier in the book, 'we have to learn to walk before we run'.i wish i will be meeting a romantic, responsible, lovable, a 'love only me' man, great and loyal and of course experienced man. i have this thing towards over 180cm guys also, because im short and currently stop growing until i reach only 155cm. hahahaha. and to my future Christian Grey, i hope we two will feel the spark between us and be together for the rest of my life. thins are getting a little crazy here.....