FLAWS

not all people is perfect. and im no celebrity or another, so of course i have flaws, in fact, i have a list of flaws. but im not going to list it all of course, a girl have to remain mysterious. i have this HUGE flaw, i realized i am a very awkward person. i just cant seem to talk like how i write. i just like to write, i guess writing makes me express more of myself, not to care what others thinking. i seriously cannot talk especially through phone, oh.my.god. i dont know what to say nor what to do. and i just noticed i can talk better to girls, i just cannot look people in the eye especially to boys while im talking. i have issues. whenever i look to a boy eyes, my face will flush, i mean APPLE RED FLUSH. i just felt utterly awkward towards boys, but i dont know what to do. i mean i clearly like boys, i just scared that the step that i took will be cause misunderstandings to the boys. i dont have a crush to my boy friends, i want to be a 'brother' like the others, seeing my girl friends being so comfortable with the boys make me envious of them. they can look those boys in the eye, talking to them like they are brothers for years, and me there sitting watching......